For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)
Looking back on the week, (after my home invasion) I saw that fear, which is from the pit, robbed me of that sound mind that comes from His hand. I had spent a week in limbo---that fear permeated so many of my thoughts that everything seemed to be LARGER than life.
The limbo of waiting exacerbated by fear:
- Waiting for the police to arrive
- Waiting for peace of mind to return
- Waiting for a coherent thought to take shape
- Waiting for "walking" weather so I could walk---not only to clear my head but to continue "training" for upcoming rigorous trip to Disney World
- Waiting for blood work from lab that had to be "redone"
- Waiting in 2 doctor's offices for "scary/unknown" procedures
- Waiting for physical therapy on leg/hip pain to diminish pain
- Waiting for biopsy report---on a place above my eyebrow I had never even noticed
But God.......in His love and mercy sent a blog comment of encouragement from a long ago student, Nancy E.
But God.....in His goodness had me open a email this morning (though sent yesterday from Australia) from Jesus Calling author, Sarah Young, who has also experienced the violation of a break-in. She is praying.
I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
and put their trust in him. (Psalm 40:1-3)
Quest ends where it should have begun...with the Lord.
