“Look, look, my heart is an open book” is what Dean Martin used to sing. That’s sort of the way I feel about my life when I blog. It’s open for folks to read and “know” about me and I don’t like it when I regress yet again in this area of trust. What kind of testimony is that?
I plan and plan and life (as I desire it) still falls apart---from shoes and reservation snafus to hair blotches to STRESS & too many others to mention, partly because I‘m embarrassed. Probably a big part of the problem is focusing on my desires and not God’s.
I just can’t keep it all together for everyone. I guess I really never could; I just thought I could. Today I added guilt to the mix because I felt I’ve not been living what I espouse. Aren’t you (reader) tired of me going back to square one in my spiritual growth?
Why do I have to keep working through these things when I know better? But Dotsy…..that’s my problem. Where’s my “But God”….in this? I tell you where He is. He never moves. He’s in His word.
Trust in Him at all times, O people Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. (Psalm 62:8)Singing (prayerfully) the praise song at church today, I was grateful that God does take me as He finds me and fills my life again. Again and again! I just had to “fess up” to Him.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again. ("Mighty to Save" lyrics)
