Showing posts with label muddled mind. Show all posts
Showing posts with label muddled mind. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 4, 2024

ROAD TO NOWHERE!

A muddled mind can be a side-effect of a stroke. An occipital lobe stroke can increase the muddlng. Factor in amyloid build up....you get the "up, up, up idea. Weariness looms. To muster my energy, hubby tries to encourage movement.
Yesterday, he said we could find the "Road to Nowhere" for a 20 minute walk.
We found the sign............
...but that's all we found!
There was a locked gate across the road. No parking area was anywhere close. It seemed, as the sign said, a broken promise f sorts for my walk.
As Son, J said, "It seems the road took you nowhere." I did not laugh. 
Maybe my mind was too muddled/concerned about backing down the narrow hill.
I'm sure there are more life lessons in these events "somewhere"----Yesterday, my mental condition was too confused a state to figure them out.
But today, Jesus, the One who is "the way," can refer to pathways of life or the journey we are on as we choose to trust Him, as we "walk" even when our mind is mixed-up!

Saturday, April 23, 2016

MINDFUL!

Are you mindful of what your mind is full of?
Yesterday's Jesus Calling, 4/22, spoke of the need for freedom from compulsive planning---OOPS!! "When your mind spins with a multitude of thoughts, you cannot hear My voice." (Oh my, I think Sarah Young's been reading my mind!)
The previous (4/21) entry identified "...your mind is the last bastion of rebellion." 

I certainly need to relinquish "control of my mind" to the Lord because I'm certainly doing a lousy job of it. Sarah's scripture citation supported the positive result--peace.
For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. Romans 8:6
Who wouldn't want to reap a mind full of peace by being mindful of Him first!

**Should have posted this yesterday....but finding it in my drafts, today, I just changed a few adverbs that needed changing. I thought I was through with this "mindful" message!
But God .....showed me this morning, a "new to me" scripture* which I have embraced for today and hopefully days ahead! He defined for me a faint spirit.
A faint spirit would include all of the "if only" regrets, "what if" fears and whys of life of a compulsive planner, who works so hard to plan life so that he/she can "help God"---by serving others. People, with a faint spirit, (think, in one's own strength) lose courage, become despondent and can burn out.

Today, may I wear "a garment of praise instead of a faint spirit." (*Isaiah 61:5)
How's that for a "mind full" of being mindful of Him through praise!

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Ruffled MInd

Authors have the best quotes---of course they do. They are wordsmiths!! Like a poet who says it best with the fewest words.
Besides a "ruffled mind" sounds more feminine than a "muddled mind."
When "sleepless in Memphis," I need to ruffle my pillow and unruffle my mind prior to bedtime. (2 Corinthians 10:5)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Gingerbread Man Mentality

Somedays I feel like the storybook character, "The Gingerbread Man."
"Run! Run.....as fast as you can." I'm running. I'm running.......but I can't seem to get away from all that is pursuing me.
I have the frayed/fractured thinking that if I "run" fast enough----my enemies of physical maladies and anxieties can't catch me.
Do you ever keep running to try and get away from all the difficult conditions of  life or bothersome thoughts that stymie truth. Do you think that maybe, you can escape reality by running away?.
Whoa.....am I (or you) trying to escape the reality of aging? Or, is all this "bother" just an "awareness without acceptance" of all that aging or a "muddled mind" can bring.

I am as as deceived as that old gingerbread man if I think the sly foxes of the world can help me. 
My body and mind may fail, but God is my strength and my portion forever. (Psalm 7:26, ISV)
I need to "run" in the path of the Lord...(Psalm 119:32)

God's truth is needed NOT mushy gingerbread mentality. (Philippians 2:5)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

BREATHE DEEPLY

3/30/11
Catching a breath was one of the “concerns” I had several weeks ago. I didn’t think it was the scary “shortness of breath” type that preceded a heart attack. I just found it hard to catch a breath and I ended up yawning as a result. Sometimes even the yawn was not satisfying. My intake just wasn’t going deep enough. Was there a real medical concern? I just wanted more life sustaining air? Was panic (in my mind) the real problem? Can a tired, muddled mind create enough anxiety to incapacitate the lungs?

On Sunday, Cole summarized a segment of Jon Krakauer”s book, Into Thin Air, which documents the disastrous climb of Mt. Everest in 1996 in which 8 of their team of 14 perished. At several of the camps/passes along the way to the mountain summit, extra oxygen tanks awaited. In one instance a climber, possibly disoriented from oxygen deprivation, radioed to climbers ahead reporting that the oxygen canisters were empty. These climbers had just been there and knew “full” canisters were available. No matter how much they implored him to use them, his altered mental state prevented him from availing himself of the life-giving source. Canisters of oxygen-----right there in front of him and he couldn’t see ‘em.

Over the last few weeks, I have been aware that an extra dose of scripture is the RX I need most. God’s word, right there in front of me. Why wasn’t I picking it up and delving deeply instead of getting by on my own somewhat limited supply of life-giving Scripture.
All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be competent, equipped for every good work. II Timothy 3:16 (ESV)
I want to inhale all that He has exhaled---in big, deep, soul satisfying breaths/gulps!
This morning I sat and breathed in God's Word. How easy it then was to breathe out my praises as well as pleas to Him.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Whining Rationalized

6/13/10 Just as I was headed (slowly) up to the computer room to try to clear the cobwebs from my brain and siphon out a coherent thought from my muddled (fatigued) mind, I began to rationalize my whines---because that was exactly what I was getting ready to do---make excuses. But God….had my eye catch my devotional book on my prayer chair, which is pretty prominent on the way to the stairs.
In the life of a saint there is this amazing wellspring of original life all the time; the Spirit of God is a well of water springing up perpetually fresh. The saint realizes that it is God Who engineers circumstances, consequently, there is no whine, but a reckless abandon to Jesus. (My Utmost for His Highest, June 13)
Enough said---consequently there are no complaints or rationalizations from me today---or at least not at this moment.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Mindless in the Mountains

12/4/09 Is it the altitude? Is it age? Is it MAC muddled mind? Why can I not hold on to thoughts? My mind is like….. a sieve? ……a piece of diaphanous fabric. Words flutter in but don’t stay long enough for me to weave them into a coherent thought---much less express it. Having a conversation with me can be a labor of love. Is that why so many are turning away or just tuning me out?

What attribute of God do I need to focus on for help in this area. I don’t care if it starts with Z, I’ll jump right to it---forget my obsession with ABC order. How else do I stop these whirlpools of words that I can’t quite qrip tightly enough or hold long enough in my grasp in order to have a complete thought?

Yesterday’s Jesus Calling’s first sentence caught my attention. “Do not be surprised by the fiery attacks on your mind…………Don’t let discouragement set in……call upon My name……My name, properly used, has unlimited Power.” Wow!

Another “D” word---He is my Defender---my only defense in the battle for my mind

Monday, September 28, 2009

DIRTY LAUNDRY

9/28/09 Mother didn’t believe in airing your dirty laundry. But she believed in laundry---in the finest sense of the word and gave meticulous attention to hers. Daddy used to tease that when dropping his previously worn shirt into the pile, Mother would have it washed, ironed and hanging in his closet before it even had time to reach the floor. She had a routine. That’s putting it mildly!
She preferred Tide in general and Ivory Snow for her whites. Her bleach of choice was Purex®, nothing else. She was a Purex purist.
After washing, the clothes went to the backyard clothesline to dry, at least all her linens did. Some how the smell of those sheets drying in the sun and breeze of the day is still fresh in my memory. A bag hung on one end of the line and she would use one clothespin to attach two articles of clothing at the same time. An amazing feat to my young eyes. Her “unmentionables” never made it to the clothesline but dried on a wooden drying rack set up on the latticed back porch. The lattice provided ventilation but kept the laundry view obstructed.
Mother starched everything (made her own starch, I think) and also “sprinkled” her clothes before ironing---maybe everyone did in this era before steam irons. Most of the time she took a Coke bottle that was filled with water---that had a strainer cap on the top which she’d created by poking holes in the lid with an ice pick---and sprinkled each item as we ironed. Sometimes she’d just dip her fingers into a bowl of water and sort of sling the water off of her fingertips. If she didn’t finish all the ironing she’d roll the sprinkled items in a terry cloth towel and put it in the back refrigerator until the next ironing day. I never did laundry growing up and Mother even re-ironed our ironing lady’s attempts. I told you she took it seriously.
Mama Davenport, on the other hand, involved me in “wash days” at her house. On my summertime visits I would help her lug the laundry down to the basement at 416 South Second in Clarksville, TN. That’s where the wringer washing machine was---hand powered, I might add. She would hand feed the clothing through the press to squeeze the water out of the clothing. As she cranked, I would pull the clothes through. They came out looking like flat but crumpled sheets of paper. Though her horror stories about cousin Joy’s hand getting caught, and of hands and arms dismembered from machines like this kept me vigilant at all times, I never missed an opportunity to be with Mama. I don’t remember any other particulars except that she had bottles of bluing sitting on a nearby ledge (that stuff is probably only used for science projects these days) and we had to be quiet when we were down there because the young army couple from Fort Campbell who rented her basement apartment had a new baby.
Most often Mama Davenport hung her clothes on a line in the basement to dry---making it a great place to hide or run under and she never seemed to care. She also had a carousel clothesline which Dang-Dang had placed in a corner of the yard up near the back of the house. I guess he didn’t want folks to view their laundry either.
Warning---No clotheslines allowed. That’s the rule of the neighborhood I’ve lived in for 33+ years. Seems like every one is against laundry of any kind---maybe that’s because it reveals too much about who we really are. I was once in a church like that as well. Yesterday, Pastor Cole talked of Aristotle’s strata of friendship---and we don’t confess our sins (dirty laundry) to just anyone but only to those whom we know well enough to take relational risks. Maybe we need warning labels like the ones on the laundry tags of our clothing. Wash separately. Maybe you only share your dirty laundry with the Lord. Or, share your dirty wash with like colors only---with like-minded close friends, who know you as well as you know them and don’t recoil but hold you accountable in love thus not allowing your sin to bleed into other areas of your life.
Everyone has dirty laundry. Whether you hang it out for the world to see (think some celebrities) or in a back corner of a yard or on a latticed back porch where only a trusted few can see it or in the deep recesses of the basement (your heart) where only God sees it, it’s there. Just know that if the filth is left hidden in the hamper, it becomes stinky and it can indeed permeate all that’s around it.

Today is Monday and at 2211 (my KY childhood home) Monday was the main laundry day. So, today’s meditation coincides with that memory as I seek to clean my heart. This time you choose the one that is best for you and where you are in the laundry room of your life today.

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity And cleanse me from my sin. Purify me with hyssop, (could be the Clorox disinfectant of biblical times) and I shall be clean;
Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. Psalm 51:2,7

Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God. I Corinthians 6:11 (Ask God how you can be “washed.”)

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church gave Himself up for her, so that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, Ephesians 5:25-26 (Do you desire your husband to read God’s Word aloud to you? Does hubby know that?)

let us draw near with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Hebrews 10:22 (How can we “sprinkle” our hearts clean?)

Now why do you delay? Get up and be baptized, and wash away your sins, calling on His name. Acts 22:16 (Is this action needed in your laundry room?)

If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. I John 1: 8-9 (ALL our dirty laundry---what a praise that is!)

I am ready to do a little laundry. Hope you join me.